Thank you all for praying, I know God was answering them and sending us comfort and peace. We got to the hospital at one o' clock on Friday. He was not aloud to eat from midnight on Thursday, poor guy. I felt so bad for him, especially when Conner was trying to take care of him by trying feed him and trying to get him something to drink. It was cute but I know it was torture for him.
Surgery started at three and I was able to go eat with my dear friend Michelle. I hadn't eaten all day because I felt bad eating in front of Marty. So I scarfed down my food because they said it would be only a half hour surgery. We rushed back to the waiting room and waited, and waited and waited some more. Finally it was all over by four thirty and he was in his room by six o'clock. Michelle happened to know our first nurse and she was really friendly but it was shift change. The night nurse Mina was wonderful and very through, the only problem was they had to wake him up every two hours. When he got up, I got up, that is another story in itself.
I wasn't sure I would be able to stay the night with him, so I brought nothing. Then when I was able he needed help and I couldn't leave. So I stayed the night in my clothes and sandals, note to self wear shoes and socks next time. Anyways, he did very well in the night, not a lot of pain mostly just discomfort. I think you could liken it to a c-section since it is in the same area, it is hard to bend mostly. He did get sick a few times from a medication they kept giving him but other than that he did great.
Today we were able to sleep, our day nurse was too busy to come in our room. So we saw two doctors and then we got to come home. He is resting well in bed and I am glad to sleep all night and be able to clean up.
It did hit me yesterday, life is different now. This is the start of the real thing, so far it has been happening with no outward signs. I will admit I am scared, I am uncertain of what the future holds. But, I know who holds the future and what the bible says about that, this I take comfort in. I still feel tremendous peace and comfort, I did have a few moments today where I was teary over things.
The main source of my tearfulness was the fact that nobody came. Our pastor was unable to come, our church friends didn't come, I am so glad Michelle could come and Alyce would have if her mother in law didn't have a appointment. The thing about it is, more people who aren't around support us more than the people right here in front of us. I think so of it is, I talk more about it online because then Marty doesn't have to hear it. He is very private and doesn't like to talk about it. I don't know but I do know that God knows, he understands and he is there for me. I was crying and I heard that still small voice tell me " I am here, I understand, I know". God wants me to lean on him, not people. I am so glad for all the support I get from my online buddies, including a newly made one. I know it isn't coincidence most of these friendships started within the past year. Normally you could say, oh it is just by chance but I can't explain it that way. I sometimes wish everyone lived here, then I could have someone to hug and cry with, pray with and just someone to be there with me. Right now, it doesn't make sense but I know some day it all will. I know the people around us care, I have so many wonderful friends, I just think they really don't grasp it yet. I think most of it is just my emotions coming out on something so little and not true. Sometimes stress has funny ways of showing itself and I think little things have been bugging me more than normal.
I am thankful for the beautiful flowers some friends sent, I am thankful for Michelle sitting with me, I am thankful for those who text messaged me, messaged me and tweeted with me. I am thankful to my ever present friend Robin who took my kids for 24 hrs. Michelle also came and let the dogs out and put their kennel out. My friend Amy emailed today and offered dinner for our family. Thank you all for everything, it means the world to me, more than you could ever know. Marty appreciates it even if you aren't hearing him say it, I know he feels it and is so thankful.
Jeremiah 29:11 " For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, " plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future."
