A few things

Conner said today "We have a half a majority." Marty and I cracked up at that one!

I have noticed on my blog tracker that I have some new readers. I would love to hear from you and find out how you came to my blog. It so fun to get comments and get to know your readers. I also thank my long time faithful readers for sticking with me when my blog has become depressing at times. Thanks for all the emails and encouragement, it has meant a lot to me.

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Coffee catch

Conner has taken to making me coffee. I just thought he enjoyed doing something nice for his mom and making me happy. He likes to make it and bring it to me before I get up in the morning, it is really cute.

 Last night he wanted to help by cleaning up the kitchen and set up the coffee pot for the morning. I told him not worry about it and I would take care of it. I told him it was not necessary to make me coffee that I could do it myself. To which he replied "Well, the coffee is not just for you, I drink it too." then he proceed to tell me that he has been drinking coffee this whole time. Nice way to find out my kid has a coffee addiction that I didn't know about. OY VEY!

In case your wondering

Marty is starting to feel better. We found out on Monday that he is "dry" meaning dehydrated because too much fluid has been removed during dialysis.

 So we back off on the amount of dialysis and changed the solution strength to the lowest possible. He started to feel better the very next day and has been able to eat again. Please continue to pray that he tolerates this type of dialysis and never has to go on hemodialysis.

Spring break

 YIPPEE! We have a week off and we intend to enjoy it. We are going to go to the park and do many things this week. I am so glad we have no baseball practice this week and can see our many friends that we never get to see.

We had our annual pancake breakfast at church today and for the first time brought friends. Then the kids hunted Easter eggs and played with friends. I have been forgetting the camera lately so you will have to trust me they looked cute. EDITED: our friend Angela sent us a picture of Elizabeth.

Elizabeth is counting the days until she is nine. She is wanting to redo her bedroom for her birthday, roses and hot pink. The comforter she wants is from Target and has teal, roses and is pretty cute.

Conner is liking his break from baseball. He is doing great this year and making tons of progress, he made a great stop out in right field the other day.

As for me, I intend on being lazy all week and just enjoying life.

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I think.... I have reached the angry stage

So I think that I just feel angry. It's not that I don't trust God because I do and I understand this is his will for us right now. It's just hard, hard to live and hard to go day to day. It is hard that life is on hold, it is hard never being able to plan, it is hard never knowing.

Marty has been sick most of this week. He has been so nauseous that he can't eat anything without getting sick. He was able to eat yesterday but it all came up later. He is taking pills but it is not working, we don't know what the cause is or if it can be fixed. He is tired of being sick and I am tired of him being sick.

Sometimes I feel like people just don't get it. Being asked to do stuff that is just not do-able but still doing it because people don't understand. I just have thin skin these days and it doesn't take much to upset me. I hate feeling that way and know it is just stress related.

I am allowing myself to feel this way and know that it is okay. I can't bottle it up and hold it in, it would only make it worse.

Interesting article

I am tired, I am weary and I am definitely feeling bad for Marty. He is not feeling good at all these days and the wait has been really hard lately. I googled wait for a Kidney/Pancreas transplant knowing that info like that is not out there. I guess I was wrong because I found this article from November 08 stating that their are 8 people waiting for a kidney/pancreas transplant at Stanford. Wow, so we have a 1 in 8 chance with every organ that  comes available. That really lifted my spirits and made the day easier  to face. You can click on my title to read the article for yourself. Also you can see Dr.Busque the surgeon who will be doing Marty's transplant when the time comes.

I am thinking of setting up a day of prayer for Marty and the transplant. I will let you know details soon.

Answered prayer, grace and forgivness

So a funny thing happened at the doctor's office today. Remember Conner's awful baseball coach from last year? Well he was sitting there when we walked in. He greeted us and we politely said hello, he asked if Conner was playing again this year and we told him "yes". He said "I bet your wondering why I am here?" and we said "yes" since only people with Renal failure go there. He was dressed in business attire so we knew that it was something business related. He said "I am the pharmacist that will be supplying Martin with his protein solution." UGH, can you say AWKARD? it was for us as well as him. He knows how we felt about things last year and we know it did not end well. Overall he was very nice and professional to us and things went well.

I just think God wants to remind us to be forgiving and give grace to others. It is so easy to judge and to be angry, it is much harder to forgive. Also it is probably a hard lesson for him to remember when you are a professional in the community that you have to keep that up outside of work. He now has seen a real patient and not just some name on paper. He knows our family and sees who he is dealing with now, he knows we are young with young kids. It was hard for Marty since he does not like people to know his situation and it is very humbling for him to share it.

This brings me to the answered prayer part. As always he commented on how awesome it is that Marty still works. We looked at him and said "Prayer, just totally answered prayer." Then the dialysis nurse, who is new at this office asked" Have you ever had a infection?" and Marty said "No" and we smiled knowing it was answered prayer. So far almost every prayer all of us have prayed has been answered, it is Glory to God and the power of prayer. Never believe that prayers don't get answered and that you can't see God in the small everyday things.

Thank you for being so faithful and praying for us. Keep up the prayers and hopefully the big prayer will get answered soon and we can all rejoice in Marty's healing.