Christmas day was good this morning with the kids opening their stockings and then me making french toast. We went to church and it was really great but I got a weird feeling about my grandma during service. I missed Gramie because today was her birthday and then I started thinking about Grandma and how she has not been well. Then going home in the car I called my mom to wish her Merry Christmas and she told me that grandma wasn't well. Then I hung up really quickly to call my Dad for Christmas and he told me Grandma was not having a good day and needed to go to the hospital. They thought that it could wait until tomorrow but she ended up having to go tonight and she is not good. I wasnt ready for this and cant stand it that I am 200 miles away and cant do anything about it. I need to go to sleep but I cant I am waiting for the phone to ring............... Thankfully two friends came and sat with me tonight. I dont know what I would have done without them.
