Waiting ( insert the Jeopardy theme song here)

  Shhh....Do you hear that sound? It's the sound of nothing, silence, zip, zilch, nada. That is what is going on with the transplant? not much. Every month we get a little tube in the mail, Marty takes it to Holly the dialysis nurse to get a blood sample for Stanford. They use the blood sample to match him to donor organs on the registry to find a compatible match. I told some friends last week that it is the strangest, most indescribable feeling to be waiting. Life is moving by at a frenzied pace but feels like it is creeping by, the silence is deafening.

  I often find my thoughts drifting during the day to thoughts of when the call actually comes. What day will it be? What will we be doing? Will we have plans? Will we be busy? What if the call comes and we miss it? The list goes on and on. For the most part we have tried to keep life very simple and commitment free as possible. We have put off classes, moving, traveling, ministries at church, etc., to be ready for the call.  Maybe next year if the call hasn't come then we will start adding to the schedule again.

Actually dear reader, I thought by this time, this year we would be talking about the transplant in past tense. We really had hoped it would happen in October of this year, but October came and went without the transplant.  I won't lie to you and tell you that November wasn't on that short list, we actually thought either of these months would be the time. November has just begun, so there is hope it could happen  sometime this month. I really hope that it doesn't happen after the second week of the month or during the holidays. Not only for us but for the family that will lose a child, a parent, a friend or spouse. I would hate to see someone hurting during the holidays. So if not  then maybe after the first of the year the time will come and we can start 2009 off right.

A big thank you to you for sticking with us during this time. Without our friends and family we would not have made it this past year and a half. You have supported us with prayers, thoughts, words, laughs and hugs. We are forever thankful,grateful for the love and support we have felt.

First day, easy post

Happy Halloween and welcome November all at the same time. It hardly seems like fall when we have 80 degree weather everyday. I haven't even gotten out my fall decor yet, I need to do that this week since I have been putting it off. I have to get back into writing, grammar and sentence structure things have gotten out of hand lately. So bear with me as I start out on my 30 day blogging journey, I promise to get back into proper writing. I hope that my readers will comment along and share in this journey with me, I am excited to see what my fellow bloggers have to say.

I am alive

I am once again participating in NaBloPoMo for the month of November, look for a new blog everyday from me. I have been saving up all month to have lots of fresh material to share with you in November. Look back in just two days for a new blog, I am so excited to share with you.

Cute cousins

Conner and Elizabeth with their cousins Alex and Randon. Actually Alex and Randon are my cousins too and they both came to visit us last month.

Fleeting days of summer

Dear friends, I am so sorry for my lack of blogging lately. We have been non-stop the last month and a half, lots going on.

August~ We got a visit from Aunt Patty and cousins Sarah, Alex and Randon. We had a wonderful visit sharing our home with them and showing them around V-town. We took them to the Sequoias for the day and of course to Bravo farms.

Then I watched Carsen for my friend Heather, her dad had a heart valve replaced and she needed someone to take over watching kids for her mom. I got a little taste of what it is like to have to get a kid to school in the morning. We had a blast having a little guy around the house again and definitely easier than having your own.

As a early birthday my mom came up the end of the month to visit. We had a nice time shopping and eating out for the weekend.  I got a whole new fall wardrobe and felt very spoiled.

September~ School has started again, this year we have a third and fifth grader. We have way more work than every before and are enjoying the challenge. Part of the challenge is Marty started a new shift and so that means we are on a new schedule. We did have a surprise visit from Uncle Dave who was in town on business. That was nice to see more family up our way and wonderful to have a surprise.

Just thought I would fill you in and update you on the rest of the house. We are doing great and enjoying everyday we have together.

Never forget

I sit here on the eve of my birthday thinking back, I know am such a melancholy person. I had such a wonderful birthday last year with Marty. This year it will be one with the kids since Marty has to work. This year has been the first year since 2001 that I haven't gotten depressed the week of my birthday. After that horrible day in 2001, I swore off birthdays. They really didn't get much better until last year when Marty took me away to the Madonna Inn. I think that was such healing experience for me that this year  I have done well.  

This year I already feel 32 since all of my friends are already 32. I am at peace with birthdays and feel so blessed to have wonderful family and friends.

All systems go

Today is the day, we finally got that call from Stanford. Marty is now officially active and waiting for a organ. We have to send in bloodwork every month and check in every few months. Marty will have been on the list a year in November. Today Trish said on the phone it can be a three year wait, so we could possibly wait 2 more years. We have both never felt like the wait would be long, we both continue to feel like transplant will come soon. We are really praying God will show us clearly and strengthen us for what lies ahead.

As always I hope our donor angel is blessed today and that their faith and family is strong. I know they will die to give Marty life and that is something very hard to comprehend. Pray for them, they need it more than we do.