Heading into the unknown

I am leaving to go stay with my Grandpa and Family tomorrow. Grandma has made no change and I am not wanting to see her like that. I will be glad to help out Grandpa and am glad to be able to do that. I am looking forward to seeing my cousins and family. My Friend did have a heart attack and she had to have to stints put in and Amy had to have a c-section and I missed the birth. I need a break so am looking forward to a mini break again.

I don't know what to say

Ok God I guess you did mean a hard road. Grandma's in the hospital and I am stuck here...I need to be here. Amy hasnt had her baby and wants me to be there and Now one of my best friends is in the hospital because of Chest pains. I think I am getting the point I think this is about all I can bear. I love you Lord and trust in you but I need some rest. Please be with all of them during this time.

fog

I am in a fog and my heart and my head are somewhere else. I cant leave here yet and go be with Grandma. I feel frozen and isolated. I cant think,eat or sleep. I know she knows I love her and I keep thinking of the funniest thing she said to me when I was down 2 weeks ago. I cant think of her as helpless... I am just sad and heartbroken

Christmas day

Christmas day was good this morning with the kids opening their stockings and then me making french toast. We went to church and it was really great but I got a weird feeling about my grandma during service. I missed Gramie because today was her birthday and then I started thinking about Grandma and how she has not been well. Then going home in the car I called my mom to wish her Merry Christmas and she told me that grandma wasn't well. Then I hung up really quickly to call my Dad for Christmas and he told me Grandma was not having a good day and needed to go to the hospital. They thought that it could wait until tomorrow but she ended up having to go tonight and she is not good. I wasnt ready for this and cant stand it that I am 200 miles away and cant do anything about it. I need to go to sleep but I cant I am waiting for the phone to ring............... Thankfully two friends came and sat with me tonight. I dont know what I would have done without them.

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to Everyone!!!! Hope you have a great holiday and enjoy yourselves.

Phew

If you decide to have a Christmas party get a maid! I am exhausted and in pajama's at 4:53 pm. We had Conner's homeschool group over today for a party and the preparation and time is exhausting. It went well but I am tired! I think that I am almost done with Christmas Cards and stuff. Now I just need to bake cookies and decided what to eat for christmas eve. probably something simple. I hope all of you have a Merry Christmas!

Nice surprise

Yesterday I got a knock at the door and it was Katie and Casper. I was so excited I missed them so much. Casper has grown and is not so newborn any more. He is cute with lots of coo's and he gives kisses too! He looks just like his daddy as a baby it is strange looking in the face of a child and it takes you back to the day when their parent was a baby. We had a great visit and I put the pics up under the photo section. I missed you Chris and wish you could have been here too!

winter vacation

We went on a trip this week to the old hometown. We had a good time seeing the family and going to Knott's and Disneyland. It is so fun to watch your kids experience new things. Disneyland was great truly a happy -homecoming the fireworks are great and I got to see to old co-workers. It was fun catching up and seeing all the 50th decor. It was great to see my Grandma and Grandpa but hard to see them getting old and having a hard time. Glad to be home and relaxing!!! See the pics I loaded up.

Sick kid

Conner is sick and as history proves when he gets sick he gets really sick!!!! He started complaining of chest pain on Tuesday night and still complained by Thurs. morn so I took him to the doctor and he has Pnuemonia!!!!! Crazy! No symptoms. No cough, no runny nose, no fever(very unusual for him) nothing. I am so thankful that I got him to the doctor. The chest x-ray showed Pnuemonia in the lower left lobe of his lung. Poor guy! About sick children they whine!!! The kid thinks he's dying because he has never had anything this serious. So glad that it isnt contagious!

Also why does everything seem cleaner with Lysol! I went nuts and sprayed the whole house! have a great day!

Redeeming Marty the continuing saga of the xbox 360

Ok we finally got it! Last friday Blockbuster finally delivered a part of what they promised a core Xbox 360. Finally Marty could enjoy the holiday weekend. I can tell you having 2 t.v.'s has helped and he has been great to not play it all the time. I am proud of you Marty!

I love Christmas

I love Christmas especially decorating! I know you think after all those years of schlepping ornaments at gottschalks and having glitter up my nose, in my hair and eyes I would totally revolt. I love it! I am obsessed with having the perfect tree and decorations. Poor kids I let them decorate and then I go back and move it. If you wanna see my tree you can see pictures look in my profile.