WARNING*Don't read if you are tired of hearing about my dead grandparents

Well I woke up yesterday and I felt like the fog had lifted and it was a good day. I didnt feel so depressed about everything in life and felt just different. It was good and I feel like life is moving on now for me. It is hard because most of my family is still waiting for things to be tied up with the house so they don't have the finality yet. But for me after I left last time I knew I wasnt going back there again. Now I know that the holidays are coming and the bandaid is coming off again soon enough but for now things are good. Then the best thing happened after all that I saw grandma in my dream last night. First time since she has been gone and it was nice.....

30 yrs old

Damn! my 20's flew by and now I am in a whole other age bracket. I can't believe I am 30something now. I can't believe it and I hope that they are great years of my life. I know my 20's was a very hard learning time for me. I hope that I can enjoy my family because time is flying in 10yrs I will be 40 and Conner will be 18 so this is the last frontier with him and Elizabeth lucky me ( I am not so thrilled about this one) will be 16 *says faciously* I cant wait for that.

Oh well, at least I havent found gray hair like Marty*hahaha*

Wardrobe malfunction

Ok, so this is the second time in a month I have had a mortifying wardrobe malfunction. My poor husband I am such an embarrasment to him.

First time I was wearing light shorts and it became that time without my knowledge and I was all over town and didnt know. AWFUL to discover that when I got home.


Then today I went to church to set up for my mom's group and came home and discovered I had a hole in a very strategic area........I want to die right now. I was talking to my pastor and my youth pastor and it is pretty awful....My poor poor husband.


I need to think of something to do about this problem. I think I will go buy new clothes all in black or something........................

Dying of mortification now.

Life lessons from Dog the bounty hunter

My cousin tells me " I didnt picture you being a Dog the Bounty Hunter type"

So the need to explain comes in and also my life lesson I learned from the show can be explained.

So yeah, I like the Dog show and I am not ashamed of that.

I think that he gives people a chance and pays forward something that was done for him many yrs ago. He shares his life and his faith and that is pretty cool and hard to do. I am not really good at that myself. Plus, I hate the way his wife dresses and think that they are all stuck in the 80's rocker/stoner look and she dresses pretty trashy and I like to laugh at the clothes and feel sorry for his wife's fashion sense. It is pretty bad!
Plus, ever since my dad lived there and we went there I have a fixation on all things Aloha and love when they go to the big island so we can see on tv where we have been and get that feeling all over again. So I love looking at the surroundings that the show is filmed in.


ok, now the story and life lesson( I am not liking admitting this part of myself and feel like I am going to be judged myself here)........ I was watching the wedding special this past week and first of all I love that they are all over the big island and I am thinking been there and been there and lovin it. The the Hilton Waikoloa is one of the most beautiful hotels I have ever been too and it was just like going there again and I loved seeing it. But I was thinking these people are pretty bad. They lead the whole world to believe that they are married already and then they arent. Then they say they are Christians and they are living together. What hypocrites and how shameful of them to pray on tv and then be living together. I was getting all riled up and then it hit me. There are no levels of sin my little white lie to the salesman is just as bad as them doing what they are doing. We all want to run around and put grades or levels of sin and there isnt. Sin is sin and one is as bad as the other. The fact is we all sin and we are all unperfect. I am not perfect and I am just as bad by judging them and can look like just as big a hypocrite as them for doing it. So I realized a huge fact on giving people grace for where they are at and that I am not their judge and jury and I need to be more thoughtful of this. So I am humbled by even writing this out and really want to keep it private but it is true I learned a lesson from the Dog.

Life

Summer has been hectic so little time for blogging. Life lately has been great not to many blips in the radar besides the extremely hot weekend where we lost power and Marty had a really bad low blood sugar and needed to go to the hospital weekend. I have been in a place of growth for many reasons and I am learning alot of things. I think some of the hardest lesson's I have been learning are in the area of friendships. I have always had many friends sometimes almost too many. I have alot of really old friendships that I have had for 16 yrs or better. I always fit in and was part of a group. So now getting older and having alot of clickiness going on around me is really hard and I am learning alot from it. I hate it first of all. I dont want to be it secondly and thirdly when it starts to affect your kids it really sucks. But today in church I heard a great message and really thought alot about what I feel God is doing in my life. I need to mourn it, get comfort from God, Seek him first, be meek and be a peacemaker. Hard to swallow. I get angry and want to say mean things to people but yet I have held my tongue and will continue to do so. More later on the Dog the Bounty Hunter show that taught me alot later...........

Vacation

 Well, vacation has sadly come and gone. We went to Big Sur and it was beautiful. The Central coast of California is my favorite place in the world. We went with some friends and their children. It was wonderful weather in the 70's with a cool breeze.

 We stayed at a campground with the Big Sur river running through it. The river is crystal clear and only about ankle deep in most places with some deeper parts. It has a current that you can tube on. It was fun to walk and find places where people had built little waterways to tube down.

 There was a  bridge to cross into the campground from the road. In the middle is a few metal pipes to let the water flow through and a bigger wooden part in the middle. People were tubing under this part and of course Conner sees this and wants to do it. We didnt understand that we needed to bring tubes so we brought just a couple of mats. So Marty and  I go to the camp store to buy a couple of tubes and our friend Gwen stayed with the kids till we got back.

 We are standing buying the tubes and Gwen brings Conner up and he is all wet and she says, ''He just got the ride of his life"!!!! He has got a frightened look on his face and she said," He got sucked down one of the little pipes trying to get into the bigger open part of the bridge." He had a cut finger and a scraped chest but was really just shaken up.

  I walk over and look at where he has gone down and realize it is pretty much a miracle that he is still alive. As you may remember, a few blogs back I wrote that he really can't swim well at all. He got pulled under water and into a dark tube and made it out.I guess he got caught up on a rock in the middle and pushed himself up and over it to get out. Gwen was at the end waiting for him and pulled him out of the water.

 All I can do is post the pics and let you judge for yourself but I spent the whole night thanking God for bringing him out of the tube.

Look in the pics for the images.

Where he went in is second tube to the left


Where he came out is second to the right

A family photo at mission Carmel

Frustration

We moved last summer into a bigger place for our family. We havent really been here to enjoy it much but it is nice. The kids have space and we have space. But, the neighbors seem to hate us for some reason unknown to us. They have all lived here a long time and know each other well but seem unwilling to be friendly to us. Our kids have had problems with their kids cussing at them and teasing them. Then they have broke stuff of ours and when we ask how it happend nobody knows. Today I was outside watching the kids play and we went over to a friends around the corner and Elizabeth accidently left her stroller out and we came home and it was thrown over a brick wall toward the street and completely broken. I knock on the person's door next to me and of course she didnt know and I dont think she did it as she is an adult.Then I ask the kids across from us and they went in when we left. Then there was 3 boys out playing and I know that one of the three of them knows something and they coyly ask if I found anything out. I was waiting for the mom to get home to talk to her but Marty stopped me because he thinks it will just make things worse. Last week someone unscrewed my light bulb and threw it on the ground all over and now this. I am angry and want to get to the bottom of it but Marty wants to just turn the other cheek and learn from it and go on. SO I WILL JUST BLOG IT and move on........................